That’s all I’m gong to say. I could have told you what happened afterwards, but I don't want to tell you my life story or anything.
Lots of people keep asking me about school. I’m supposed to be going back ext fall. When I get out of here.
I saw D.B. last weekend, he was asking me what I thought about everything I just told you. But the truth is, I don’t know what I think about. I shouldn’t have told so many people about it. Strangely, I sort of miss all the people I told you about. I don’t know why. I really don’t. Don’t ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody.
Monday, 29 October 2007
Chapter 25
It was just getting light out. I sweating buckets, but it was cold so it felt good.
I didn’t really know what to do. I had a headache and I felt more depressed than ever before.
I couldn’t stop myself from thinking about what just happened. I thought about what he would say to Mrs Antolini when she saw that I was gone. I knew he would make something up though. He’s smart like that. I wondered if I was wrong in thinking he was making a pass at me.
I walked up to Fifth Avenue, but every time I stepped off the curb I ha a feeling I would never make it to the other side.
I saw Phoebe through this glass door, wearing my hunting hat. She had this suitcase with her. She wanted to run away with me. I tried to make her go back to school but she wouldn’t go. She ignored me after I kept telling her no. She wouldn’t even walk with me. Eventually she started to follow me and we ended up at this carousel. She went and hopped on it, so I just sat on the bench and watched her go round and round.
I didn’t really know what to do. I had a headache and I felt more depressed than ever before.
I couldn’t stop myself from thinking about what just happened. I thought about what he would say to Mrs Antolini when she saw that I was gone. I knew he would make something up though. He’s smart like that. I wondered if I was wrong in thinking he was making a pass at me.
I walked up to Fifth Avenue, but every time I stepped off the curb I ha a feeling I would never make it to the other side.
I saw Phoebe through this glass door, wearing my hunting hat. She had this suitcase with her. She wanted to run away with me. I tried to make her go back to school but she wouldn’t go. She ignored me after I kept telling her no. She wouldn’t even walk with me. Eventually she started to follow me and we ended up at this carousel. She went and hopped on it, so I just sat on the bench and watched her go round and round.
Chapter 24
They had this really posh apartment over on Sutton Place, Mr and Mrs Anotlini. I used to play tennis with Mr Antolini all the time.
I rang the bell. Mr Antolini answered after the elevator boy finally let me up. Mr Antolini was a pretty heavy drinker. He had a highball in his hand. He was a very sophisticated guy.
I went in and sat down and Mr Antolini offered me a
cigarette. We started talking about school and all. He got on my nerves a bit. He kept saying ‘So you and Pencey are no longer one’. It sort of annoys you when people keep saying things like. D.B. does it sometimes.
I followed him to the closet to get some blankets and stuff. He couldn’t reach with that goddam highball in his hand. I helped him take the stuff over to the couch. I got changed in the bathroom. He turned off the light and I fell asleep.
Then something happened. I don’t even like talking about it.
I woke up. I don’t know what time it was but I woke up. I felt something on my head. It scared the hell out of me. I must have jumped about a hundred feet. It was Mr Anotlini sat there, in the dark, petting me on the head. Boy I was nervous. I got my stuff and left. In a hurry.
I rang the bell. Mr Antolini answered after the elevator boy finally let me up. Mr Antolini was a pretty heavy drinker. He had a highball in his hand. He was a very sophisticated guy.
I went in and sat down and Mr Antolini offered me a
cigarette. We started talking about school and all. He got on my nerves a bit. He kept saying ‘So you and Pencey are no longer one’. It sort of annoys you when people keep saying things like. D.B. does it sometimes.I followed him to the closet to get some blankets and stuff. He couldn’t reach with that goddam highball in his hand. I helped him take the stuff over to the couch. I got changed in the bathroom. He turned off the light and I fell asleep.
Then something happened. I don’t even like talking about it.
I woke up. I don’t know what time it was but I woke up. I felt something on my head. It scared the hell out of me. I must have jumped about a hundred feet. It was Mr Anotlini sat there, in the dark, petting me on the head. Boy I was nervous. I got my stuff and left. In a hurry.
Thursday, 11 October 2007
Chapter 23
I had to be very quick on the phone because I didn’t want my parents to walk in on me. Mr Antolini was very nice. He was about the best teacher I ever had.
When I got back to D.B’s room, Phoebe turned on the radio and we danced for a little while. We danced for about four numbers.
“The front door!” I quickly ran and turned off the desk light. Then I grabbed my shoes and hid in the closet.
My mum thought Phoebe had been smoking. But she just said she lit one and put it out. Good old Phoeb. When my mum finally left, I said my goodbyes and started to vcry when she borrowed me her Christmas money. I don’t know why, but I couldn’t stop.
I walked all the way downstairs and nearly broke my goddam neck on garbage pails. I had to be quick, Mr Antolini was waiting for me.
When I got back to D.B’s room, Phoebe turned on the radio and we danced for a little while. We danced for about four numbers.
“The front door!” I quickly ran and turned off the desk light. Then I grabbed my shoes and hid in the closet.
My mum thought Phoebe had been smoking. But she just said she lit one and put it out. Good old Phoeb. When my mum finally left, I said my goodbyes and started to vcry when she borrowed me her Christmas money. I don’t know why, but I couldn’t stop.
I walked all the way downstairs and nearly broke my goddam neck on garbage pails. I had to be quick, Mr Antolini was waiting for me.
Chapter 22
“You don’t like anything that’s happening.” She said
She depressed me even more when she said that. I told her that I did so she made me think of something. But the thing was, I couldn’t concentrate. The only thing I could think about was the two nuns collecting dough. This boy I knew at Elkton James Castle. These guys started in on him. I won’t tell you what they did to him. But he ended up jumping out of the window. I thought it was something just falling out of the window.
She depressed me even more when she said that. I told her that I did so she made me think of something. But the thing was, I couldn’t concentrate. The only thing I could think about was the two nuns collecting dough. This boy I knew at Elkton James Castle. These guys started in on him. I won’t tell you what they did to him. But he ended up jumping out of the window. I thought it was something just falling out of the window.
Chapter 21
I decided I would go back home just to say hello to Phoebe and then beat it before anybody else sees me.
After about an hour I finally got to Phoebes room. But she wasn’t there. She always sleeps in D.B’s room when he’s not there. It was quiet as hell when I went in his room. So I just sat on his desk and read through Phoebe’s notebook.
I woke her up. She was so excited to see me. I had to keep telling her to be quiet. I asked her how school was and just talked for a while. She kept telling me that my parents were going to kill me for getting kicked out of school. So I went to the living room to get some cigarettes.
After about an hour I finally got to Phoebes room. But she wasn’t there. She always sleeps in D.B’s room when he’s not there. It was quiet as hell when I went in his room. So I just sat on his desk and read through Phoebe’s notebook.
I woke her up. She was so excited to see me. I had to keep telling her to be quiet. I asked her how school was and just talked for a while. She kept telling me that my parents were going to kill me for getting kicked out of school. So I went to the living room to get some cigarettes.
Chapter 20
I just sat there getting drunk waiting for these two French babes that worked there when I used to go to come out and do their stuff but they never came out.
I must have sat in that goddam bar till one ‘o’ clock getting drunk as a bastard. I felt like giving old Jane a buzz, so I paid my bill and left.
When I got to the phone booth I didn’t really feel like giving old Jane a buzz, so I called Sally instead. But her grandma answered and said she was asleep. When Sally finally came to the phone, I was talking like a madman. I always do that when I’m really drunk.
I must have sat in that goddam bar till one ‘o’ clock getting drunk as a bastard. I felt like giving old Jane a buzz, so I paid my bill and left.
When I got to the phone booth I didn’t really feel like giving old Jane a buzz, so I called Sally instead. But her grandma answered and said she was asleep. When Sally finally came to the phone, I was talking like a madman. I always do that when I’m really drunk.
Chapter 19
I used to go the Wicker Bar quite a lot, but I don’t anymore. I cut it out. Gradually. I got there pretty early so I just sat down at the bar. It was pretty crowded. It was mostly full with phoneys, so mi just sat and watched them for a while.
Old Luce was supposed to be my student advisor at Whooton, but all he did was, give these sex talks and all. I asked him these wuestions about this girl he said he was seeing, but he got really sore about it. The thing is, he used to make you describe really personal stuff, but if you ask him he gets really sore about it.
Old Luce was supposed to be my student advisor at Whooton, but all he did was, give these sex talks and all. I asked him these wuestions about this girl he said he was seeing, but he got really sore about it. The thing is, he used to make you describe really personal stuff, but if you ask him he gets really sore about it.
Chapter 18
I was sort of hungry after I left the skating rink so I went to this drugstore and had a cheese sandwich and malted. I was gonna give old Jane a buzz, see if she wanted to go dancing or something. I rang her but she didn’t answer her phone, so I had to hang up.
So what I did was I gave old Carl Luce a buzz, to see if he wanted to go for a drink. He was about three years older than me, he graduated from Whooton after I left.
After I’d seen the movie, I walked down to the place where I was supposed to meet old Carl Luce. The war movie made me think about the war. War movies always do that to me. So that’s what I was thinking about on my way to meet Carl Luce, the war.
So what I did was I gave old Carl Luce a buzz, to see if he wanted to go for a drink. He was about three years older than me, he graduated from Whooton after I left.
After I’d seen the movie, I walked down to the place where I was supposed to meet old Carl Luce. The war movie made me think about the war. War movies always do that to me. So that’s what I was thinking about on my way to meet Carl Luce, the war.
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